January 7, 2010

So I've been here 3 days now. At first when sitting in holding I thought about my circumstances. I know that I'll be here for a while. I think I need to be here. I can't stop smoking crack out there but have no choice in here.

A lot of people probably say they'll change and this is the last time they're coming here. Well I mean it. I'll use this time to get all the help I need. I've already put in requests to see the unit manager and attend CA meetings.

I was finally able to talk to my daughter today. My mom told her where I was. My mom thought she'd be devastated. But surprisingly she wasn't. She and the rest of my family are probably relieved to know where I am and that I'm alive. I hope that I'm able to use this time to help myself and not get caught up in the drama or add any more charges to my record.

I'm 32 years old... never been in jail before....going to be maxed out. Is this the start of my jail career? I hope not!

-Tonya